I have been mourning for days now. No joke. Downloading MJ songs, watching tributes, joining Facebook fan pages, watching lives, reading articles, and whatever.

He's such a beautiful man~ even with the white make up and the plastic surgery. You see him smile, and you think "Awww." Haha. Old man. XD But still. He's beautiful. So fucking beautiful~

The Lisa-Marie blog post made me bawl so hard. I never knew the amount of emotional pain he was in. Of course, it's expected, right? He's fragile~ No. He's HUMAN. For the first time in a while, I saw him as that. Human. A person. Not the "rapist" (which he ISN'T), or the "plastic man", or the "white but black guy" (O_o). I saw him as a human, a father, a husband, and a son. He was just really talented.

I regret not seeing him live. Now I never will! AHH!!

Anyway~

I love the song Ben. That last verse just reflects Michael so well.

"Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I'll never be alone
And you my friend will see
You've got a friend in me

Ben, you're always running here and there
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind
And don't like what you find
There's something you should know
You've got a place to go

I used to say
I and me
Now it's us
Now it's we

(I used to say
I and me
Now it's us
Now it's we)

Ben, most people would turn you away
I don't listen to a word they say
They don't see you as I do
I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again
If they had a friend like Ben"

I can't listen to this song without crying TT_TT

RIP Michael Jackson. Our king of pop~